Shayad yahi hai Pyar...

Pyar,Pyar,Pyar..
Akhe country me world wide bukhar...

Poochte hain apun ki sahelian..Ki koun hai wo yaar??

Jisko dekhne ke lie Gmail karti hai acess baar baar??
Jiske ping aane se aata hai chehre pe nikhar??
Koun hai jo Olay ko replace kar raha hai??
Koun hai jo Bina Dior ke bhi khwab mehka raha hai??
Koun hai Jisne Amrita Ko sharmana sikha dia hai??
Kya ho gaya hai Amu ko bhi Pyar???

Well.. Kehte hain sab Amu ho gai hai..Dil ke haaton bilkul bekar..
Par Amu to hai in sab se bekhabar..
Sabse keh dia humne ..ki hai koi..Jisse milne ko hai Amu bekarar..
Din gin gin...mahine..saal hue paar..
Par ab bhi hai Amu ko kisi ka intezar...
Waiting ka silsila khatam ho to Dating hogi chalu mere yaar..

Na hai Inkaar...na ab tak hua hai Iqraar..
Par palken jhukti hain unke khayalon se kai baar..
Milungi unse to karungi Solah Shringar...

Tab tak tadap rahi hai Amu for 1 deedaar..
Sochti hu khayalon me jise..Shayad wo bhi sochta hai ye ki..yahi hai pyar..bas yahi hai pyar..

My Last Blog for Infosys!!

Guys here goes my last blog..I may forget to mention all the names..Apologies for that..But do remember my heart remembers all those names..inscribed.. I will never forget all those moments spent with you guys..Spent here in Infosys technologies!!


The Beginning!!

It started with a Tat No.3946.. which is still kept safely by me..
When they called out 2 names of 200 and my name was one of them..the moment was to be cherished..Yeah..The Journey with Infy was marked by that day!!

The Struggle!!

I was not one of those who could lavishly travel in autos as a student!!
Kabhi to aisa hua hai...Ki I have calculated "7+8 while goin..while coming..I take a lift...Then the expense would be reduced..Or do I take a 25 Rs pass.."
I would stand in local busses queues ..with lot of dhakka dhukki around..
Once I stood there in hot sun..Thinking..when will I get a bus..n then..I saw a white bus with blue Stripes passing by..I smiled to myself and thoght "Ab aur kuch din aur..."
Yeah..those were days of struggle!!

The Joining!!

24th September 2007 ..Yeah the Big-day..I stepped into the huge campus..Infosys Bangalore..
I smiled n thought..So finally getting down from the White n Blue bus...
“Sapno ki dunia hai..Ye jagah I thought …”A dream world!!
Ye infy ke tag me koi to jadoo hai!!There is some magic involved..when u wear this tag and walk down ..people look at u like u r a film star(yeah..I have this seen that expression lot of times..n I must say..I loved it)…
Yaha aake dekha..toppers ..people who have topped all their life are sitting beside me..

We were told that less that 2% from a college make it to infy.."Look to ur right n thn look to ur left..faces which u c are those esteemed 2%..They are special..n so r u "..
Well...should not boast about..But yes..Those lines did gimme a high!!

The Training!!

Yeah…It was time to get serious in life..But Wait..who was serious here??
It looked like a college after a college..
IMS_Sept_2007 was the most notorious batch Infosys has ever seen.Yeah..Microsoft training was something fun to be in.. I guess we are the only brats who have been driven into the training class like nursery kids.Yeah..Brats..
There are lot of fond memories ..sweet …sour..bitter..crazy days!!!
That voice n accent training..Nithin’s English..tod marod…
Arpita’s crush on manoj Sir!!Vrasha’s affection for me..Tousif’s brotherly love..Sangeetha’s Nok jhonk..
Chetan’s maturity.. Jigmy(my crush)’s sence of humour ;) .. Jojna..shaheer..deepak..vivek.. Sleeping beauty Tamilvenan.. Everyone was fun to be with all cartoons..Loved your company guys..Thanks for appreciating my dance..encouraging me ..caring for me..teaching me..Yeahh..workplace too has friends..

My First performance!!

Stage jaha..Amrita Wahan.. Yeah..My first IMS day-TARANG!! I was Antakshari event’s incharge..
Yeah I won couple of prizes for dance( ;) expected isn’t it! )
This performance gave me my 1st spot award for extra curriculars!! Lovely stage..Lovely croud
Thanks Amit,Amitha for the support..Our team rocks  ..Would love to have 1 more dance with u guys..

Recruitment Team!!

DU1 recruitment team..Loads of fun…
I met the cutest PM in IMS…Thanks Vishal for believing in me and putting me across the right opportunities..Thanks Mamta for mentoring me..Thank U Sangeetha for understanding my limitations as a fresher and I would like to say..that u r1 of the most hardworking PMs I have ever seen in IMS :)

Friends:

Thanks to BB n Blogs I have some very close friends in life :
Deepak Ji..I still search for u in Building 44,
Rahul Ji..U will remain my dancing hero..
Rahul..Tu to stud banda hai..Keep writing!

KVH…

Aaaah…My 1st billable project..Hmm..
Lots of names..I was “The Bachi” of this project.. To this bore floor..(as they say)..I was the Oomph factor ;)… I loved this team..Loads of fun!!As I think of the team I get a smile on my face..I can remember people having tears in their eyes..when I left d project..
Vidyadhar the dude!!
Veda the kitten..
Saritha the smiley..
Archana the Pretty Face..
Arun the Joker..
Deepak the Mischief monger..
Thilaga the cutie …
and Neel The Lead!! All of them are a very important part of my life!!
They have taught me..What a team means.. Thanks for everything!!


HDS(Hitachi Data Systems)…
Yeah "..ROti ..Kapda..Aur Maakan..Yeh hai Hitachi meri Jaan!!"
Think Hitachi..
Think WORK..
Think Amar..
Think Sambit …
Think the nonstop onsite calls from Sangeetha..
Think NAC’s motivating words..
Think Rakesh’s inspiration..to be a young PM like him..

Yeah..One of the largest Project of IMS..I am privileged to be with the team when it was in the initial stage..Lot of KT sessions..16-18 hors work..400 mails..200 calls perday..Now that’s team Hitachi..
Thank u Amar for making me realize I m more than Just a Pretty face..For challenging me to give my best..
Thanks Sambit to question my credibility and hand hold me and push me for being the best!!
Thanks NAC for encouraging me..
Thanks Rakesh..for beliving in my potential…
Thank U leads..Selva the Super hero.. Shyam the Smarty,Ajaz, Akila the backbones..,Gautham the Rahul Dravid/Mr.Dependable of the team.. Srikanth the nominator/observer(Thanks for nominating me in all those awards)..Karthi..Mr.Google(has answers for everything )..

The team..
The “T” gang..well its not the Tamil gang it’s the Talented Gang!!U guys do an amazing Job..Be it stretching for hours or catching up things fast..I liked ur learning attitude..Rocking team of Madonna,Abinaya,Sudipta(Error Sweeny),Ramya(O….Laptop…) aahh..d long list.. Ruksana, Shailaja,Renuga.. Raja..
Unstoppable Babai-Brothers..Rama Krishna, Arvind, Ravi teja ..Loved the energy u put in the work..
Navesh Katoch & Sai Kartheek Neela :) in the same league!!
Rupali & Sherlin..The day u stepped in..I realized it’s important to have friends at work place!!Thanks for being there for me..Thanks for that midnight madness..those stupid PJs..those idiotic pranks!
Spencer & Mathews..U guys r d assets to HDS..Good Job..Good Luck!
Shaguftha,Mughda,Mamta… This “H” gang rocks..Loved your company..U guys r extremely close to me!!
We have a amazing email and provisioning team..Kudos to all of u.. Sunil, Santhosh, Ramu :) !!
Offshore/Onsite support team from Infy Satish,Siva(global support),Murali,Soumin,Sanket(P&S)..Thanks for helping me with complex issues..It was a pleasure to work with u guys..
Loved the team..I would love to make 1 more Sm7 ticket or take a VPN connectivity Issue..
But guys..I will miss u.. Whenever U miss me..Remember..I m just a call/mail away..Thanks for making Amrita what she is.. and adding to my knowledge.. Good luck…

The woods are dark lovely and deep..But I have promises to keep…
Miles to go..Before I sleep..Miles to go before I sleep!!

Chocolates love and strangers!!!

As the cupboard creaked I could remember ,how he gave me chocolates every time we fought. I used to take them and forgive him…I turned back and memories flashed back..


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I was bored eating chocolates he gave me after our recent fight…There were so many left …
I thought for the millionth time. “Who next?” .As I scrolled down my phone no. list to see whom I can call next . In a boring 2nd shift it was somewhat expected out of me. I turned around to see empty seats and then realized it was 7 pm already and almost all of them have left. As I called my last friend and got a response “tu theek to hai na?meri kasam?” (r u ok?swear on me) I realized how much I have been dependent on people for my emotional needs.. I have been always a sensitive and emotional person. Not sure of the reason ..may b a bad childhood..all those parental fights..or may b a long distance relationship that had shaken my roots and senses when my x-guy left me …or may be just my present…committed –yet lonely..

The guy in my life presently is nice,quiet,caring..and handsome…His looks gave a feeling of butterflies fluttering in stomach every time I see him.. still I crave for his attention.

Past 1 year has changed me a lot.Pateince has touched my life or may be I have just grown up, in all aspects infact.Attitude and beauty strikes every1s mind when they see me…… the chirpy ,happening, attractive and sexy “Tina Roy”.

As I sat staring in the computer ‘Tina ,want some coffee ? ‘I turned back to c my TL smiling at me(an invitation). ‘Na.. I just had coffee.. u carry on’I said and turned and could sense disappointment as he saw his latest crush ,crushing his intentions.”Vikram “ how much my eyes searched for him..don’t know why..may be my loneliness or may be his eyes which could tell me he was bowled over my looks…”Tina..how much I need u”every time I came across him, I could read it clearly..

As I started looking out of the glass and stared out into nothing I realized my phone was ringing. ‘ Unknown no. …. Oh God these credit card people they can’t let be in peace even after 7pm.Heights!!
I am so not gonna spare them this time. ‘Hello, who is it??’ I could hear a familiar voice “Amrita how r u??? “ …Wondering who it was I replied ” Leon??? ” not recognizing my guy’s voice will b d last thing on earth..

Stranger: ’leon ?? who leon??’
(may b I am thinking of him o lot…I thought..it’s not him)
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Me : Whom r u looking for?
Stranger: Hi I am Shiv… Can I talk to my friend Amrita?
Me: I guess you have dialed the wrong no.(about to hang up)…
Stranger : Hearing such a nice voice I guess the no. is just not wrong.
Me: (surprise and angry)Ohhhhh.. Flirts all over the world..I mean.. You just gotta hear a girl’s voice and start flirting???

As I expected apologies I realized how wrong I was…

Stranger: has some 1 told u…ur voice becomes more attractive and sultry when u r rude,I bet u r too beautiful…
Earnestly for a moment I blushed,but I maintained my Hitler kinda voice…

Me: Oh! That’s toooooooo much..why don’t u try writing dialogs , I am sure u will do good.(I was happy criticizing him. A stupid stranger)

Stranger: You are so perfect with guesses maam' , I am a writer this conversation is just too much to inspire me for my new story. By the way sultry voice,good guessing shows sharp brains…what else??? god has created you with perfection..is it???what say “angel”???

(“ANGEL”…leon calls me that, but its not him.. its not his voice..though the same charm in it..he continued speaking….)

I bet u have a better name than this…
Me: yeah.. I do… but u know wat I havnt seen a flirt like u… sick…(I was almost smiling )
Stranger: Oh please don’t call me a flirt, I m exclusive, I don’t talk to many..
ME: is it??? So why u bugging me from past 5 mins??
Stranger: May be I just fell for your voice…
(his instant reply made me blush again..why am I doing this..blushing like a school girl…)
Me: so what next ??
Stranger: Name??
Me: What??
Strange:Can I know ur name??
ME: Tina
Stranger: Sexy name..
ME: WOOOOOOOOO…….Dont u think dat was just too much for 1st conversation??
Stranger: U mind??sorry but cudnt help complimenting u…so can I call u again Tina???
Me:Y do u thik I will let u do dat..???
Stranger :may b u wont pick up my call..but I will call u tina…lovely name…by the way did I tell u ..I fell for ur name too?
Me :enough..bye…(uff…they should ban such flirts I murmured and smiled to myself)…


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I am too honest with my guy .. busy working on his laptop he still looked so cute.. I told Leon all about that incident.. he laughed it off saying “Oh my honest baby doll… if you wana talk to him you can… but I hope u don’t loose ur mind with writer’s type romantic crap..” and he happily got back to work…I hated his Networking guy type reply…

Days passed on and due to uneven shift timings there was a lot of communication gap between me and Leon.. he dint have time even to look at me and I got unexpected compliments from Shiv(without even seeing me,he used to like everything about me)..all his words soothed me after a hectic day… 

It was 14th feb ..the lover’s day… Leon had gone for some client meeting and will come back by afternoon…atleast half a day together.. as I expected his call and hurriedly picked up the call and said ”Leon??”
Hm…. I am so jealous of this guy..dats what I heard…”oh!! Shiv??”
Shiv: yeah doll…so ready for a dream date??

(Did he say dream date??? Leon would b back by now and may be sleeping peacefully…. Oh! Why does he ignore me so much?) As I got carried away with this thoughts Shiv's voice brought me back to my reality…
Shiv: You there?
Me: kind off…
Shiv: So what if I surprise u??
Me :Surprise??
Shiv : Lets just face it..we have spoken of everything Tina but… it is too much to hide my feelings now… I Love U .. I am so mad about u..
Me: stop kidding..(laughing) my guy is a boxer he will kill you..
Shiv:I am serious Tina… I can die for you.. no matter what u say… I will always love u…please…………………………….

I hung up nervously… Such a romantic caring and sensitive guy proposing me surely gave me a thrill and yes somehow he was an important person in my life… But Leon… I never thought of leaving him.. he is a bit busy..but loves me..but.. I was confused for hours and dint pick up Shiv’s call..

It was raining outside..I ran as fast as I could..reached Leon’s place to find him sleeping peacefully.. I woke him up.He was blinking clueless ”whats wrong baby??”
As I hugged him and cried he lifted me in his arms and tried soothing me..as he touched me I could feel how much distance can be filled just by one touch..

Me: Shiv proposed me…(tears streaming down my face)
Leon : (still caring and soothing me…) Do you love him? (I dint answer…how could he ask that? he dint object me talking to a stranger and now he becomes an important part of my life and now my hero comes back to ask this…???)

Leon: Do u love me…?? ( I looked at him ,he was still the same Leon.. so simple..I thought of the day while he proposed me looking away for me…and nervous not to loose me… “Tina” he had said…”I love you ,but I don’t want u to reply now..u can take ur time.. think and get back to me… “LEON….i ” I started speaking ,he interrupted “I know u thought me as ur frien.. I m sorry baby… but I love u please don’t say any thing…please think of it… “LEON… listen…” …….. and he continued “I know u will get a better guy but…… I had hugged him n almost shouted…. “DUMB I love u… I really do…. “ and we had laughed and hugged each other for long time……….that was the dumbest proposal on earth…but he loved me a lot I could see that in his eyes… but now… the same guy…my Leon is asking me…if I love him… not a good situation.. Gog must help me now!)

Leon: Tina… u must know.. I am mad about u..cant let u go… wait I will give u something and u will happy… as he turned away to the cupboard… I got wild.. how can he think of giving me chocolates now)

Me: ( I almost screamed ) LEON I AM NOT A KID ..U CANT GIVE ME CHOCOLATES AND …just tell me to forget everything..
( Things were getting worse…I was crying bitterly but he was so inconsiderate and walked towards the cupboard… and now I was thinking of shiv… )

He came with a box and pleaded me to open it…I opened it sobbing…
It was a strange looking gadget..possibly a transmitter .. he sticked it to a phone ..a new one which I never saw with him…and called on my no. and said … “speak”

I was clueless..but murmured some words… he had kept the speaker on and I was shocked to hear an absolutely new voice on my speaker.. I looked at the screen it was flashing “Shiv on call…”
World was spinning around me… as he hugged me and said ….” Baby… I am ur Leon and.. SHIV" 


And I was in his arms forever..and ever…


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And then my ???“Shona” asked me… Her small palms pushed me out of curiosity as I was lost in thoughts…I took her in my lap and said …then this happened and turned my special moments album…
And she faintly read the words …

     TINA WEDS LEON
“ You are Cordially Invited"

As the cupboard creaked I could remember ,how he gave me chocolates every time we fought. I used to take them and forgive him…I turned back to see Leon getting chocolates for “Shona” as he used to give me.My eyes were all brimmed with tears. “ Mommy cries a lot…”

Leon told Shona and hugged me to lift me in his arms and little Shona ran around us happily eating chocolates !

Friends Forever!!

Friends Forever!!
Now this is sad!!When u become so close to someone and they have to leave u and go away!!
My closest buddy is going abroad..And I just want to wish him a successful life!!He has been a pillar of support for me and has been my guiding tubelight..Lighting up my life with perfect brightness!!
We have nothing in common..But still he is a adorable darling!!It's he, who has made me realize so many things..about myself..and cheered me all the way of my roaler-coaster ride life !!

I just wana thank him for all the support and love!!I will miss him a lot!!
He was my big time favorite Saheli!!We have bitched about so many things..laughed like kids and he will not like it..but still I would like to say he has been like a big brother sometimes!!(OOPS! did I hurt anyone)
Every time I talk about a Rakhi brother !!he will tease me saying--
"Sabko Rakhi Baandh de tu!! "

(Ab nai bandhungi!!Pata chala koi acha ladka miss ho gaya...)

But the fragnance of our friendship will linger in all my stories!!I dont know when I see him next but whenever I think of a friend I will still scroll down for his number in my contact list.May be I go senti!!But then I will be happy for him..and he will remain in my best buddy list always...

The last ride!!

OK...I will come back..My brother was startled by my behaviour.."Dopahar ke do baje..kaha jana hai tujhe??" he said I turned my bike n heard him saying.."Mumma Didi fir se gayi.."

So I took left and went straight um..so it crosses 40 50 60 65..Oops saamne se Roy uncle aa rae hain..
(Bas yahi ek buri baat hai Rourkela ki har doosra insan jaan pehchan ka hai )So slowed down the speed...
went straight crossing the Bank row ..and then the hospital..Took a u turn Rourkela House and then back to the Ring Road..
Ab koi kehta hai streetsmart ko kisi ko de do..Rakh ke kya karna hai..Meri streetsmart meri jaan hai..
I almost killed my brother when he had applied white paint on the LADLEE painted on it..It looks girlish he complained and I had slapped him hard..He was too shocked to speak..But something is mine..Its mine..
Ya Ya..Dats me..Some people find it crazy..But I fiercly protect my things...

Possesive ..Ya Dat I am..
So..Straight again the speed rising.. 60 65 67..Left is the fountain near the market complex..Beautiful is this place..Not just the place ..Everything is so beautiful about it as I took the turn I realized this is the place where I had come to know how much a friend can care about me..
Rourkela has a extreme climate..Durga pooja time is the time for climate change..It was the year 2004 ..Me ,my best friend and meri pyari streetsmart ..Hum nikle ghoomne..

I was having a bad cold and Ganga Jamuna was flowing through my nose..The dust allergy added to it.So I was basically suffering badly ..still kaha main rukne waalon me se hu..As usual being a lazy bum I did not have a Hanky..So condition was still worse..So then we crossed this fountain and I saw a hand coming from behind and wiping my nose..I was shocked ..I mean she actually did that..
I was so touched that my eyes brimmed with tears..

The dress which I got for her this time..was something so precious to her..It was 5 degrees on 25th night and she wont even wear the jacket while I was like almost frozen to death..Ammu ne dia hai..Sab ke saamne itrana hai usse..And I will just watch her and smile...
Pata nai what relation we have in this birth..Friends..Sisters..Advisors....On and On...
Par kisi na kisi janam me..Wo Zarooor meri Maa hogi..

Memories of school days and flash backs..Hmm so I took a turn towards school and came back home...

The previous evening :

She: Main kuch chahti hi nai hu Amu..Bas jo hoga i will accept it..Mummy papa jo sahi samjhenge wahi karungi..

ME: Gaping at her..

She: Main khush hu..I am content with watever I get..
Me:Thinking..Why are you doing this?? When I know you wana open your wings and fly..Why have you killed your thoughts?
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I was thinking of school days when she used to say : Ammu hamari dosti me kuch bolne ki zaroorat nai..Whatever U think I can know it..

So I took a deep breath and looked into her eyes and thought..: "Chal mere saath..tu avi keh de..
I will take you..Stay with me till you realiize what you want to do.. not what others want you to do.."

She looked at me and said..Chal main ghar ja rai hu..Aur ha kavi bhi tujhe koi bhi complex womplex ho na..to yaad kar lena..Babes U r still a Babe..

I smiled and let her go..

Next day evening..I was about to leave..She called me..: Ja rai hai..
Me: Yeah..!!
She:  Amu jab bhi tujhe man kare ki tu waapas aajae..Apni ambitions and aspirations ko khatam karne ka mann kare na..

"Bas itna jan lena Tu meri bhi zindgi bhi jee rai hai.. You are living my life as well !!"

So,she understood whatever I thought..

Me:  Oye heroin!!Wapas aane ke saare raaste band kar diye tune!!

She smiled  and said : Apna khyal rakhna,tu to mera strong Bacha hai!!and yes.."Babes u r still a BABE".. I could hear the smile and pride in her voice..


But me..  I just wiped away a few tears .. Pretended to be a stronger person and moved on!!